The main thing that I'm excited and a little proud about is that I'm heading into the home stretch with my monthly food charts, a year in food charts! I. Am the only one excited about that. But what I've mainly been doing with this blog is developing a food system that works for me, if nobody else, and by George, I think I've got it. I mean, I think I've got it to the extent that I'm having thoughts about writing it up in a more permanent form, viz., a book. But what, party of one, your book is ready? It seems ridiculous, and still. I have these thoughts.
Possibly not unrelated to the above, blog stats have backed off from 400 hits per day to more like three hundred. Which I don't write this blog for the stats so isn't supposed to bother me...
but it doesssss, a little
but not enough for me to change what i'm doing
Just because you choose something doesn't mean that it's never going to bother you. You're going to end up never choosing if you're waiting around for that choice that's not going to bother you at all. Our lives are going to bother us from time to time.
So yes, I want to finish out the year with these inaccessible food charts and inapplicable cooking practices, and furthermore I want to take this whole year as my first draft and jump right into... a second draft. I've actually had thoughts about taking off A Whole Year from the blog to work on this book of food charts.
At the same time, there's so much more that I want to be writing for the blog. Like I wanted to be writing about habits all this year, and at this point I'm simultaneously triumphantly heading into the home stretch with food charts and throwing in the towel with habits, train go sorry Charlie, maybe next year? And sheesh, every other day, I'm writing in my head about why I don't like to focus on calories for food or fitness, or weight loss as a goal, or truthfully even fat loss as a goal, or slimming or sculpting any body part, not that I don't think those things work, just that they don't work for me and I want to work with things that work for me, and I want you to work with things that work for you, so the same sort of things should work for me and you for us to work together!
m: jaegger pilots!
Though are are a lot more specifics that go with that, and those haven't gotten written not because I don't have time, but because I have been choosing to play derby and also pretty significantly rest for playing derby in the time that I might otherwise be writing everything that I want to say about everything.
And that's basically the state of the blog for now. As I grow older and wiser, I'm less and less inclined to predict how things will turn out, and more inclined just to do things and that's how they turn out. Second Wind is going through October, and I'm in for another home season that I think goes through March, and I guess I'll see how I feel then, if I feel like I want to do something different.
ETA: You know what? I'm going to take a break, this is when I used to take breaks after all. I have a chicken stock recipe and my early fall food chart in the pipeline, those can publish on their own. I might write up cooking practices for the month, then break for real until it's fall for real.